Happiness is just outside my window. Would it crash blowing 80 miles an hour. Or is happiness a little more like knocking On your door and you just let it in…

Happiness feels a lot like sorrow. Let it be you can’t make it come or go. But you are gone – not for good but for now. Gone for now feels a lot like gone for good

Happiness is a firecracker sitting on my headboard. Happiness was never mine to hold. Careful child light the fuse and get away. Cause happiness throws a shower of sparks

Happiness damn near destroys you. Breaks your faith to pieces on the floor. So tell yourself that’s enough for now. Happiness has a violent roar

Happiness is like the old man told me. Look for it but you’ll never find it all. Let it go live your life and leave it. Then one day wake up and she’ll be home

Home, home, home

Happiness by the Fray.. my NICU anthem

The song I held my babies to everyday

Through the endless ups and downs

Through the happy days and the sorrow

Praying they would keep breathing …

Praying their heart would keep beating ..

Praying to get the home.

To the NICU mom .. so so happy for the birth of her new baby and yet so broken at the same time. “Happiness feels a lot like sorrow.. let it be you can’t make it come or go..you are gone for now .. NOT for good but for now..”

Never lose faith. You are not alone. Believe in miracles. They do come true.

Thank you God for choosing me.

My sons born at 28 weeks 5 days

Laser surgery by our angel Dr. Ruben Quintero for TTTS at 27 weeks

Peter James 1170 grams 51 days in the NICU

Maurice Jace 790 grams 93 days in the NICU

We are finally home ❤️